Porn, gone but not forgotten

Here is a short thought from Max, who is changing his relationship with porn.

I’ve been away from using porn for almost nine months, but it can still rob me in my day-to-day life. Connections can be triggered at odd times. At the weekend I could hear my youngest child giggling and screaming with laughter from the sitting room. When I went to investigate what the fun was all about I discovered he had pressed the point A to point B repeat function on the DVD remote control and was watching one of his favourite cartoon characters endlessly get flattened then pop out to its former shape. What should have been a moment of joy and wonder at the way my son could enjoy life so easily – at the way he is developing and understanding the world and already being creative with technology – was spoiled. I was deeply aware that I’d used the very same function to line up just the right few seconds of porn and watch them endlessly until I’d relieved myself.