EVAN has agreed to collaborate from time to time with Porn Recovery UK about his process of working with a 30-year porn habit. Here’s his sixth blog.
I’ve only masturbated three times this week – despite having magazines and R18 DVDs. I’ve started a couple of times and felt bored, zipped up and got on with something else. It’s like something has disconnected in me at the moment. It’s not a bad feeling, just very different. I know it’s because I’m keeping away from the net. A couple of times this week I’ve just thought, at the oddest moments, wow, I’ve not been thinking about sex all afternoon … or … all evening. I just know if I had been on the net it would have been different. The Internet would have kept me there for an hour or so before it finally fired up my interests. Breaking this cycle is what success is all about for me. I can, for the first time in a long while, say ‘I feel good!’